Its my birthday and i'll cry if I want too!

A week from tomorrow, will be my 18th birthday! Time has flown by SO fast. I cannot believe I'm coming up to being sick for one year! (You would think that time would go by slowly, when you aren't feeling well). . Time, goes slow by days, and the weeks seem to be over before I can seem to roll over in my bed.

Have you ever heard the oldie song, its my party and i''ll cry if i want to? Yeah. Theme for my birthday. I can't have a good birthday while I'm sick. So, I'm not having a party, (thank goodess) . .the visits would kill me!!! I just can't seem to be excited about it, because I always dreamed of moving out, and being independant, and my situation is completely opposite of that. Completely DEpendant on people, and there is NO way I could move out YET! But just you wait, I will get better, and I'm moving out! CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY I AM NOT SICK AND CAN BE AWAY FROM HOME. (I pray that this day comes sooner then later, or so help me)

One of my biggest "goals/wishes" that I wanted to do on my 18th birthday, was to jump out of a plane. Obviously, that is a no go, because I can't attach my mattress to my back, and better yet, how am i supposed to jump out of a plane, when I can barely seem to roll over in bed.  . . Hehe. Looks like my mattress is my best friend. 

I have a new obsession, they are called "Tubie Whoobies" or "Belly Buttons". They are little round "button-like" fabric made stuff, sold through facebook, that go under my stoma on my GJ tube. They are cute, and unfortunately, I don't have any yet. . (I'm working on figuring out what I like, so I can ask for them for christmas presents.) Fortunately, they are super cheap, and can't wait to order my first package (hopefully). Belly buttons are awesome. Only people with feeding tubes would understand ;) 

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! BIG NEWS! I GOT A DOG. SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEE <3 I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND AM COMPLETELY OBSESSED WITH HIM AND HE IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND, AND NOW I HAVE A BED BUDDY, THAT IS LOW KEY TO LOVE ON. HE SNUGGLES, AND CUDDLES. BUT, THE BEST PART? OH YEAH, HE DOESN'T BARK OR WHINE. HE IS GODSENT. PERFECT FOR ME AND A PIECE OF MY HEART WILL ALWAYS LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY. The coolest part? He can just "sense" my sickness, and he always knows just what to do to make my little heart melt. He sleeps in my bed, and snuggles all the days. Sooooo cute. MMMhmmm i just want to squeeze him SOOSOOOOO much. He is my everything :) Love him. He is ALL mine and no one can have him. NOPE NOPE NOPE. So BE JEALOUS, BECAUSE HE IS BETTER THEN ALL OF YOUR DOGS, AND CUTER. mmmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmm (I am bias).

Oh, also, to everyone, sorry for not updating this since who knows when!!! I just have been not feeling well, and am still not feeling well. I am trying to just do little posts, here and there, so sorry in advance for all of my randomness in my posts. I am going to try to be better at posting pics every once in awhile. 

So, in september, basically all that happened was I spend most of my month in Primary Childrens, excluding quite a few ER visits, and getting surgery to have my GJ tube placed, a scope, intestinal and Gastroparesis testing, and my NJ tube out. It was quite a tragic month, and I'm leaving it at that. As a result of most of my days in the hossy, I am now behind in school, and I am working on catching up so that I am able to at least graduate in May or August (I hope I can). I struggle, because it hurts to much to write and type, which i know doesn't make sense from writing this post, but I'm actually using the IPAD 2 and talking into something that types what I say (Thank goodness for this amazing app). 

Here are som pics of a few things :) My facebook has more pics!

P.S. The t-shirts are ready, and anyone can call or text me, or my house to order. 801-592-3907 (My cell) 801-489-5412 (House) There is also a donation button, if you feel inclined to want to help out with our tiring medical bills. 

There will also be a seperate button here in the next few days to just buy t-shirts. For now, the donation account is opened, and all donations are welcomed, and won't go unappreciated!

Thanks :)