What if my healing come through tears?

What if your blessings come through rain drops, what if your healing comes through tears. What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know your near. What if trails of this life, are your mercies in disguise.

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace.
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, prosperity.
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering.

All the while, You hear each spoken need. 
Your love is too way too much to give us lesser things.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear.
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near.
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love.
As if every promise from Your word is not enough.

All, the while, You hear each desperate plea.
And long that we'd have faith to believe.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win;
We know that pain reminds this heart, that this is not, this is not our home.
It's not our home.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?

What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life;
Is a revealing of greater thirst that a world can't satisfy?

And what if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights;

Are Your mercies in disguise? 

Everytime I hear this, I swear, I lose it. It describes my whole life in a minute.

Sometimes, I can pray for everything to get healed.

But sometimes I feel like my tears, have fallen by the millions at a time.

Yet, nothing comes. No healing, even though the promise was made that I would get my healing.

It takes so long for me to get healed, if that comes anyday?

I can pray all I want, yet it is not on my time, its his. Can't my tears be enough to heal me?

I know my faith is enough.

Waiting patiently, while my tears fall by the millions. . .hoping that each tear, takes me closer to my healing.

I hope it comes soon. 

Shout out to my cute Chels :) I love her, and she needs some prayers right now, as she is suffering a lot, and is needing love right now. I wish I was well enough myself to ride up there and lay with her. She is a great girl, and she deserves her healing before mine. I will lose twice the tears, to hope she gets hers.

Love ya chels

Love everyone. 

Still waiting on my Ohio date, haven't been called yet.

PLEASE COME SOON.

Also, everyone please pray for me as i am not doing the best either.

BTW, i can't figure out how to load my videos, but you can find them along my FB posts, etc. :) Sorry, i don't feel well enough to try to figure this stuff out.